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easily distracted

it’s been a while that i haven’t put anything here, and so i thought i told my self to just put everything in multiply instead. well, what can i say? women.

today was a movie day. i think ive watched 3 or 4 movies today, errands in between and a whole lot of thinking. i have a lot of things to buy and settle and with all bravery, i wrote them all down as if i have all the money to buy and accomplish them. well atleast i have my plans already in my mind.

i love the company of gays, but now, they’re the most annoying set of people known to me, considering that they hinder my deep thoughts to flow at a constant rate because they’re too freaking drunk and noisy and that i can hear them more than i can hear my ipod songs.

so now i lost the momentum of writing a heartfelt piece. This then turns out to be a post of remorse. i lost my writing appetite. i think i’ll just read the book i’ve been starting to read since forever.

reminds me..

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..of someone i m*ss

pag sinayaw nya to may libre syang k***

..keyk.

hahaha!

when anger subsides..

while i was at work, at the height of my disappointment, all i could think of is to go home and write a blog to let go of my rage.

right now, i don’t think im writing this because of anger. I just wanna write, as i always do.

i don’t think its necessary to write the whole details. i just don’t feel like it.
so here’s what i’ve learned: before you get mad, make sure you have the right reasons.

 

 

“Be ye angry, and sin not”

 

 

it’s a good thing i thought about that. to think that it was not just once that it happened to me. atleast I know im doing what I have to do, and what i’m doing is right.

Thank God.

 

what i want right now..

1. something to keep me really busy so i won’t get the chance of being idle and think about him. not this time.

2. anesthesia.

3. live ALONE.

4. earn more money.

5. go to college again.

6. do something productive and fruitful.

7. turn back time.

8. eat ferrero rocher and ride space shuttle, FIVE times.

quid pro quo..

some people can get their pen and paper running when they’re happy. well i guess im quite different. i get more inspired when i feel sober, low or quiet. i guess im too overwhelmed with happiness that i get speechless or self-contained when the moment is there. like my system is in a state of shock.. ha! i think im being bias right now, coz im not in that mood. now it gives weight to the knowledge ive learned from the wiseman.. actual situation is really different.

3 posts came to pass and was left abandoned in my forgetful mind, now i wanna start before i totally loose grip of it.

its been almost 7 years since ive been going to that place that gives me peace. last week was a different feeling. not that i wasnt able to feel peace, its just a simple funny feeling that i dont wanna magnify or exagerate by writing that into detail. *sweet innocent smile* when i was on my way home alone, ive notice that everyone going out from the convention were too quite. weird though, or perhaps i was just too observant that time. as if i could almost hear a pin drop with the silence i was hearing. everyone was so peaceful, or maybe just too tired to rant or chat.

so nonsense huh? no it isnt.

the second one? oh i forgot.. my disease is getting worst. *sigh* someone told me i need to practice my recalling skills. that i just cant do. i think of it as a gift, and i think he gifted with that. me? no.

now the third one.. the one that triggered me to make this post.. haaay.. dont tell me i also cant remember. *pause*

got it! i was carried away by the music ive been hearing, almost let the memory flew with it. but here it is.. i wanna go away and be happy, the way those peculiar people wants to be happy. but that will be so selfish of me. *period*

i thank God for all the things He’s giving me even though most of the time i feel astonished and undeserving of those blessings.. you can never find love like His.

i think my mood changed right now. great.

empty brain, full tummy! *LOL*

*sigh*

can’t think of anything to write.. my mind has been too couched lately while my digestive system is working twice as much as my brain does

*munch munch munch*

i’ve got all that i need.. notebook, camera, broadband connection and few useful resources except for the wit to put them all together to make one good readable stuff. ha! so cool..

what is it that i need? maybe fresher air, long drive and nature tripping to compose my writing spirit. aside from that one.. i’ll keep it to myself

well, atleast im writing. and thats good by now.

another first?

the 1st time ill ever get myself into blogging (as far as i know.. or maybe another forgetfullness issue *sigh*). i always wanted to blog ever since, yet time and a certain someone wont let me. as a resolution, ill keep it dicreet, for me not to have a problem with whoever he is

rant rant rant..

haha! discreet blogging? kinda ironic. *LOL* is that how will this be? nah! just need a home for my notions. as of now, i really dont care about someone commenting on what i have to say.. i just wanna give way to my passion, atleast letting it out. an outspoken person trapped in a muted mouth is what i am, which is favorably better..

simply happy.. and now i could start

*wink*